On November 1st, I will cross my fourth marathon finish line,
this time for a charity with profound personal meaning.
I am running the 2015 TCS New York City Marathon with the
Athletes to End Alzheimer's to honor my mother, Charlene, who was diagnosed
with Alzheimer's Disease in 2013. My mother has Alzheimer's.
Yep. Still sounds surreal to even say it. But, I say it, and I say it
without hesitation.
There is no shame in it; and, the more the disease is
given a face, the more it will be talked about.
If you're one of the people reading this, you already know the
numbers. They're staggering. So, from both a quantifiable and emotional
place, I am running for my mother, and for my whole family, because it could be
any of us. We don't have a family history. The unknown has come
along, and believe me, it's schooled me in all things Alzheimer's.
Without seeking the root of the problem and figuring out how to
prevent it, everything else is really a band-aid. I was taught that if I saw
people falling off of a mountain, I wouldn't send an ambulance to the
bottom. I'd run to the top to see what the hell was going on. Well,
we're there. People are falling off of that mountain left and right, and
I run so that our resources can be used to prevent this.
I run because The Alzheimer's Association has been an immense
support network for me. The 24-hour hotline is always there, and my
support group has been an incredibly centering force in my life. Through
the connections I've made there, I was referred to a wonderful licensed
clinical social worker. The chapter asks nothing in return. So, I
really do want to give back to an organization that does so much for me and my
family.
I run because my mother's a funny woman, and I am consistently
moved that she's still self-aware of her comedic ability--sometimes even
laughing hysterically at her own jokes. Sometimes, when the mother I know
stops and the mother I'm starting to know begins, I reminisce with her about
one of her various sitcom-worthy stunts, and BOOM. She's back. I
run because I want her, and others like her, to maintain what makes them smile.
I run because things have changed, and I don't know what else to
do about how unfair that is. I know now I have to keep my telephone
conversations with my mother concise. My mother, the same woman who used
to proof-read my papers in high school and insist I compete with her on
crossword puzzles (otherwise, she swore my SAT verbal would suffer) has
changed.
So, there you have it. I have no control here, and I hate
that. But, I can help. I can love my mother; I can give her great
care; and, I can raise money for this incredibly worthy cause.
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